life is so fragile!??!!

i can't believe that endon passed away!!!!

it was so shocking when i found out on the news. it's like..i never knew how serious it was until now. yesterday i found out my housemate's close fren's mom passed away, and that her own father passed away 13 years ago. i nearly flipped!

btw, i got...some form of slipped disc. yeah. serious. i am not pulling your leg at all. my back is super painful that i couldn't get out of bed this morning. and walking sitting standing hurts. i just realised how often back muscles have to be used. now i feel like an invalid. i went to the doc and she is so freaking useless, all she said is that i will send u for physiotherapy.
what about the pain?
take ibuprofen
iv'e been coughing for 2 months and it hurts like a knife when i cough.
drink honey with lemon
WHAT ON EARTH????
i got numbness and pain in the leg
oh..the physiotherapist will tell u waht to do
when will i see one?
oh u wait for them to call you for appointment

what the heck???
i can't even go about doing my daily stuff...and its been so bad for a week already. i have to cancel my skiing trip cuz of this. now i dont think i can even travle with this condition. i need a car and a wheelchair. but still it wont really help cuz sitting is very painful also. i think the only position i can be in is lying down on my back.


i feel like going back in dec. but airtickets are so freaking expensive..like 800 pounds!!!

how is everyone??