the beginning of an end....

hey ppl... since no one is gonna break the season-of-not-blogging, i'll do it.. not gonna end this year with a stagnant blog... keep it alive ppl!!!

but whatever it is, been having lots of thoughts about my 2005 journey since there are few more weeks (will continue to use 'few' to avoid reminding myself of how soon EOS is gonna be) left to 2006.. but no matter how much my mind wonders and deviates from reality, it is inevitable somewhere inside my mind, while i was still in wonderland, imaging, dreaming, thinking, this lil voice will whisper "study.. study.. the clock is ticking.." then, i'll be like wake up, then try to study again, then after a while, the same situation will repeat.. thats how i've been spending my hols..

& speaking of time, my biological clock is ticking too.. i mean, it always has been ticking, but this month it has started ticking FASTER.. my ageing gene (whatever chromosome it is located) is activated & the first sign is a strand of guess what?????? A WHITE HAIR!!! not that i am fussy about how i look or whatever, although some of you guys might think that i am very vain, but well, its a history to me.. my first strand.. and the start of ageing process in my body... dah la my body is already half-dead copin with tremendous-beyond-measurement stress bcoz of EOS... here there's another additional stress added onto my body.. what the.... medical school is getting too much for me.. although i havent started vomiting out all my medical facts (if that ever happen, then medical career is officially dangerous)... auntie said she crossed her line, i guess there are more lines to come.. & its nvr gonna end til we die, coz like what docs said, doc is a lifetime commitment.. so, dunno whether this is a good news, or a pity one..

first was traumatic experience once again in kkb.. (for those who doesnt know what happened, i was daily being visited my MR. FLYING COCKROACH... i just have no idea why it has to appear in my room, around my bag, on my labcoat whatever.. totally freaks me out everynight whenever i walk into my room.. even during shower, i am on guard, in case it flies from no where & ambush me...) & now ageism.. is this how i;m gonna end my 2005? hope not.. despite the busy schedule, am gonna celebrate my last few weeks with my friends that came back from overseas, & celebrate christmas with love ones, watching one tree hill (which i am up to date now), OC, house & lost..

my prayers to all of you that let these few weeks be an impacting moment for you, not leaving or missing any opportunities behind but to cease every doors God has opened for us.. what i always remind myself recently is "there is more to life than studies" -although it is important.. (you all might say that that shdnt be a problem for me, or i will score or whatever, but commonly, studies are always a problem to students.. regardless of anything.. diff ppl have diff expectation, diff amount of time spent.. so, it is not for us to say anything, but more when a friend sulk or complain, it is for us to hear.. speak for the reasons to encourage & to alleviate one another, not otherwise.. you might never know that what you say have an impact of one another, esp the close ones :-> ) & hope you guys can step into year 2006 with another great adventure, and striving for your dreams and continue to challenge what is unchallengable and keep a life purpose!!!

JUST WANNA END THIS LONG LONG MSG AGAIN, WITH WARMEST REGARDS FROM ME & MY FAMILY, & WISHING YOU GUYS A HAPPY CHRISTMAS & A FANTASTIC CELEBRATION!!! woman, you will miss all the fun here while you freeze yourself and get "ais-gigit"... take care & God bless!!

love,
wenhao